Wednesday January 18th

Oh Wednesdays. Wednesdays are my long days, well had I passed all my courses and continued with the calender schedule wednesdays would be my long days. Now they are kind of my pretending-ly long days. Yeah....I don't really know why I'm doing it either. I did get a little work today though, I think the time out of the house will be good for my productivity level.

Realized I have a quiz next week and I'm 2 problem sets behind. The real problem is that the night before is W's birthday so we're all going out to dinner. Add that to the fact that we're going out this weekend to celebrate (and that D has friends coming to stay over) points in the direction of minimal studying.

I was looking up masters programs today and once again I realized just how badly I screwed myself over. All masters programs look at the last 2 years. All I had to do was do well (or decent) last semester and I would be fine. But nope, I failed 2 courses causing my academic schedule to become skewed and completely off set my future semesters. I honestly don't even know if i'll be able to recover enough except I sure as hell need to try.

My major has a students association club/group and I went to the meeting today (I was also assigned a task!) I'm going to feel so embarrassed when it comes to picking courses and talking about courses etc just because I am so ashamed at how I performed last semester. Really its the first semester that counts and I completely screwed it up :(

On a happier note, my moccasins came in today! I'm thinking about picking them up after class on friday but I might just go tomorrow depending on how I feel. While at the mall earlier I saw these tops at Sirens that were really cute (same top in orange and in white) and I definitely want to try them on...however I might just wait until the next time I go home (next weekend). I'm already planning the makeup I want to buy next weekend, its kind of ridiculous. Somehow i've just got so much that I want to buy. I also want to start drinking tea leaves. I'm not really a big tea drinker and I don't want to become addicted to caffeine but a nice cup of earl grey or a herbal tea is a good pick me up.

Not too much happened today, really not that productive of a day (which has to change). Lets hope tomorrow isn't more of the same.

Thursday January 12th

Today I went to financial offices to hand in my letter, the women I talked to was very kind and informed me that I was to bring my letter to OSAP when picking it up. That's going to have to wait till tomorrow though, so expect an update in my next post. I am still feeling very anxious, I think its a mixture of what the OSAP people will say, worrying about my success rate in this academic term and even more worrying about the near future (summer job, summer courses, courses for my 4th year).

I've tried looking up some possible internships for the summer. I am personally very interested in the product development side of food science so something to do with food marketing would be right up my alley. Unfortunately it seems that those opportunities tend to be in the states and are usually looking for a food science background or a business background. Neither of which I have.

I really want to find a job that is related to my field however given my poor academic performance and my lackluster resume I feel as though my options are quite limited. Theres a job fair coming up in a couple weeks that I'm thinking of going to. The only problem (because of course there needs to be some sort of conflict) the fair is from 10-3:30 and I have class until 1:30. (I've got a quiz on that day as well...) I do want to try and make it to the fair though, networking with anyone in my field can only benefit me in the long run.

I've decided to drop BioPhysics. Physics is definitely not one of my strong suites and I can see it being a struggle had I decided to continue. While looking at Masters programs I also noticed that there was a minimum of 3 third/fourth year courses required in each semester and had I continued with BioPhysics, that would be another requirement I didn't have! I am now registered in Membrane Biochemistry. A fourth year course (my first one). It is biochemistry which I find incredibly interesting however its once again the process of actually studying it (and staying on top of the workload) which is the problem. Unfortunately the course conflicts with my tutorial, causing me to miss out on the first hour. I'm unsure what this will mean for quizzes and such but it is going to be a pain since the buildings are not close to each other. While checking the course lists today I saw that PoD had 2 open spaces, and i went back and fourth contemplating on taking it. Before I had a set decision the spots were filled and the course went back to being closed once again.

In a way it might have been for the best. Had I taken PoD I would have had 2 days with 2 exams on each day which would have been incredibly stressful. I'm hoping it will be offered DE over the summer so I can get one requirement off of my list *fingers crossed!*